>Is this all relevant with regard to what you bring to our attention? I think so, because, while I think that there's still enough room for the idea that a human has at least some free will, it must not be forgotten that free will requires awareness and awareness requires a brain. And a brain is what you did not have before you were born. Ergo, there was no way you could have decided to choose to live or not. It's that simple.

Hmm, I wonder if the spirit or soul has thoughts? If so, then I would have been able to make the choice. Either way, it's supposition on both our parts.

As for depression, nope that wasn't it. I've just decided to ask God someday why I had to go through all this crap.