>>Basically, I made this mistake once already and the punishment was severe, but we were able to restore the relationship to some degree (not to the original openess, though).
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>>Now it looks like everything is lost and there is no way back.
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>>The question is: what makes you to repeat the same mistakes over and over again even if you can predict the outcome? I can not answer this question...
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>Freud might argue that you were subconsiously trying to sabotage the relationship.
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>"The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results" - Ben Franklin

As this would help! <g>