>I am really scaring the h**l out of myself. Not even trying to control the narrative any more, just hanging on. My name is Mike and I am an alcoholic. I am going to go into rehab.
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>Yeah, sure, as my friend Marie said so many times. You like to say it but you can't do it. You won't get help. It's just your stupid secret. You drink because you want to drink, period.
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>Push send, dummy.


I feel for you. Although I don't drink (except the occasional glass of wine), I have a friend that decided to sober up the day they put him in the back of a police van and spent a night in the drunk tank.

Admission and recognising you have a problem is the first step. Hang on, and you'll do it. Your loved ones will surely appreciate it.