>I am really scaring the h**l out of myself. Not even trying to control the narrative any more, just hanging on. My name is Mike and I am an alcoholic. I am going to go into rehab.
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>Yeah, sure, as my friend Marie said so many times. You like to say it but you can't do it. You won't get help. It's just your stupid secret. You drink because you want to drink, period.
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>Push send, dummy.

The best of luck to you.

My wife has been working hard to get some rehab treatment too. This time of the year, they tell her there is a waiting list for beds. It looks like she may have to wait until after x-mas. I feel for you both.