>>Well, I wish to be able to smile on this. I can't. I just can't stop crying. Perhaps I'm taking all of this too emotionally.
>
>You should'nt give that incident that much importance. I really don't see why anybody would want to put you on their filter. But it's probably their problem not yours. To me there's a basic principle. You can't love everybody and you can't be loved from everybody. And that is no matter what you do.

I agree with all that you're saying. But the problem is that immediatelly as I start to think about it, I can not stop... I can not get rid of depressing thoughts and they intensify by themselves.