>>>It's hard to stop worrying and stop mentally torturing myself when I know that someone who I always liked hates me. I'm running towards the stone wall head forward and keep beating against it till it bleeds.
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>>That may be one particular person - but I would say that at least here on the Universal Thread, most of us, quite simply, love you.
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>That helps <g>, yet I want this particular person to be at least neutral. I believe it was the case for several years yet changed one day quite unexpectedly for me.


I know we have had this discussion before but can't you just let it go? Not everything is meant to be. Better to be thankful for what you've got. Healthier, too.