>>>I kept drinking yesterday, as I told you I would. I stopped, as I also said I would. My headache is almost gone. It's not a nice problem to have.
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>>Glad to hear you stopped. I know you can succeed in the long run.
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>I know I can. If I can go several months, I can do it forever. Am really kicking myself for slipping.

You have to make that decision on a cellular level. I was, once upon a time, a 2 pack a day smoker (25s, not 20s). I made the decision to quit and failed pretty badly. I am convinced it was because it was a surface decision. Sure I wanted to quit, but I also wanted to smoke.

I finally came to the point one day, where I just plain stopped. Way down deep where it really counts, I didn't want to smoke any more, so I just stopped and never looked back. I've never even been tempted to start again. It's a decision, that, if you make it on the surface, you can do it if you have the willpower, but it's a fight every day. If you make the decision deep in your bones, then it's actually easy.

I've never been that big a drinker, so I don't honestly know if it's really the same sort of thing, but I suspect it is.