>>>>Just so tired of fighting against it. I have always tried to stay positive. At the end now, It wasn't so bad. I had a nice life. I'm just a little crazy, I guess.
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>>>Wait for a while and we'll help you Mike.
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>>Now there is the voice of experience ;-( --- wait a while.
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>>You and the others here on the UT have helped me probably more than you know. I have been depressed practically from birth. Even as a kid I was depressed. I do my best, it just comes roaring back sometimes.
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>>When I am sober and stable I am OK. You wouldn't know me from your neighbor. Staying that way, that's the hard part, even with medication.
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>I'd be able to tell. She's a lot better looking than you. Oh, wait, sorry. Ok, maybe not a lot. ;)
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>>Have a good night. Talk to you again soon.

I'm trying. In all of my self-fantasies, the kind we all have, suicidal PITA is not among them. I honestly don't get it.

I just got out of bed and it's dark outside. (Media conspiracy!) My head is nowhere in this world at all. You're a good man, Charlie Brown, you're one of my favorites here.