>Thanks. And the same is going to be true today.
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>One thing that has surprised me about AA is how many of the old timers (not necessarily old, just been sober for a while) say the only thing they can promise is they will stay sober today. And some of them won't even say that. They say I am sober now but who knows, I could drink tonight. That's not very reassuring. It bothers me that I have an affliction that will proibably never go away -- will never be able to count on staying sober, will always have to go to meetings. Doesn't seem fair. But that's self-pity and serves no purpose.

Its purpose is to be recognized as self-pity, which is not quite a grownup thing. You kick yourself for that each time and stand up, go on.