>When I go to AA meetings I don't feel nuts. When I go to meetings I feel it. But when they get going about the higher power they drive me away.

Get to a meeting and stop with the excuses! The AA meeting is a higher power, the AA group is a higher power, your sponsor is a higher power. Remember it is a higher power as *I* see it, the big I is you buddy not anyone else. Get thee to a meeting and stop the bull sh*t. Mike you know what you have to do and you know how to do it and you know when to do it, now just do it damn it!

>Who cares what a drunk thinks? How worthless is that, even at Christmas?

Nobody cares what the bottle thinks, but a lot of people care what you think, even at Christmas.