>>>>I hate to say this Mike, but if you keep this up, pretty soon people here are going to stop feeling sorry for you and just tune you out instead.
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>>>>CALL YOUR DAMN SPONSOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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>>>>Oh, so sorry, silly me ... I should have yelled at you *hours* ago! I'm surprised Tracy didn't yet. Maybe the tuning out has already begun.
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>>>Replying to all ---
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>>>(And yes, I know it's 3:15 in the morning. I slept so much from yesterday afternoon on I am now wide awake. Will try to get back to sleep for a couple more hours after posting, until it's time for Emily to get up).
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>>>Allie prevailed on me to stop drinking early yesterday afternoon. I poured out what was left. I did call my sponsor and had a long talk with him. Yeah, I know, I'm supposed to make that call before drinking or buying alcohol. (To Marcia and Alan, I don't keep it in the house. When the urge gets too strong I go out and buy it. There have been times I have resisted the urge to do so, but obviously not every time).
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>>>Today I will be sober. Believe it or not, I am sober most of the time now. It's just that about every time I drink I get on here and blab about it ;-(
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>>>I apologize to all for posting drunk yesterday. That's disrespectful. If I can't help myself from drinking, I can at least stay offline.
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>>>Please don't anyone give up on me. One thing I hear a lot at AA meetings is never give up. Setbacks are certainly not encouraged but when someone does have one, they are told not to give up just because they stumbled. The room is full of people who stumbled more than once on their way to sobriety. I want to be one of them.
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>>>Back to bed....
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>>Next time you do a "Goodbye cruel world" on us I'm fedexing a rope, a knife, a bottle of sleeping pills and ... erm ... a precipice to you!
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>Well, this wasn't one of them. I do not feel remotely suicidal. I just had a bad day with the drinking, that's all. Please don't take that as minimizing what happened, but let's not overstate it, either.

PS My prev. comment was "tough love" :-)