>It's been a long time since I tried to justify drinking. I know I shouldn't drink. And it kills me to keep letting my daughters down. It's just a hard thing to get past. I do feel I have made some progress. When it comes up here on the UT I think you see it at its worst. There are good days, too, lots of them.

Just to keep it real, you might want to read your response here again (and note the date):

Re: Alcoholic Message #1171757

Don't stop AA without having another program in place. To do anything else is selfish and irresponsible. Get your daughters into Al Anon or get them into another support program. At least make it an option for the older one and a requirement for the younger one if they live with you OR STOP DRINKING.

Nothing will convince you. You drink because you want to drink. You are selfish and are currently being a terrible parent.

I cannot be any clearer than that. If you post in a public forum, then you open yourself up to any and all responses. That was my response (from a child of an alcoholic parent).