>I have been fighting alcoholism hard and still haven't beaten it. Not asking for sympathy because I don't think I deserve much. Well, maybe I am. I know I am a good guy with lots of good things going for me, including two daughters who are way better than I deserve. I go to AA almost every day. I want to quit. Yet here I still am. It's mystifying.
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>Good night. At least I have enough sense left to go to bed sometimes.

I know you're a divorced man. Maybe it makes harder with alone. However a relative of mine becomes drunk at the morning having wife and children.