>>Doing a lot of reading. That's my temporary remedy. I sincerely hope working again, in an exotic locale, will snap me out of it. I have been more worried about money than I let on to anyone.
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>Sorry to chip in here Mike but I think when Tracy said you where expecting outside factors to help you stop she was spot on when she said that won't work. There's only on person that can stop your problem and thats you. They do have bars and they do have shops selling booze in Baton Rouge and you will be away from whatever support you have in place at home.

I appreciate that. I appreciate everything that might help me. It's down to me, I know that. To be extremely honest I am torn between knowing what it does to me and continuing to drink. It has a power I have been unable to deny.

Lots of the time I visualize the nice life I have experienced sober. Every time I go to AA, well, most of the time, I feel it. Drunks helping drunks. I just wish there was group therapy without the god agenda.

Mike