Hi Neil,

You are the first to identify the real problem, or at least the first to say so. True confessions time, then. I have been drunk all week. This is exactly what I was afraid would happen. I thought the motivation of working and making money again would be enough, but evidently not. The first two weeks went well. This week, off the wagon in a big way. I honestly have no explanation other than that it's a disease.

I called my AA sponsor yesterday and he was drunker than me. He has gone back to old ways. He had been sober for a year.

Reservations for the next two weeks are made. I am going to give it that long. If I can't get myself under control I will resign from the project and go back home. I was doing a lot better than this there. Many people, in AA and out, have told me my sobriety is the most important thing, more important than anything.

The infuriating thing about it is I am happier sober.

I do believe it's a disease but ask for no sympathy. People like Tamar and Tracy who kick my a** are what I need. The people I respect in my AA group back home are the same way.

Two weeks.


>Hi,
> As with all problems, it is not until you grab the problem by the throat, look it in the eye and tell it that you are not playing its game any more, that you will be able to move on, do so.
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>You are made of better stuff than this, get out and enjoy life and have a good (dry) day.
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>>I have been sick for two days now and my hours are all screwy. It's 1 in the morning and I am wide awake after sleeping through the evening. Money flying out the window. What can you do? Back to Lee Child and hopefully a brighter morning.
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>>Someone say hi. I feel a long way from home.