>>I have been drunk all week. This is exactly what I was afraid would happen. I thought the motivation of working and making money again would be enough, but evidently not. The first two weeks went well. This week, off the wagon in a big way. I honestly have no explanation other than that it's a disease.
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>>Mike, I know that you don't like me very much, but watching you make the same mistake over and over again just pisses me off. When you keep saying over and over again that alcoholism is a disease, you are just making axcuses for yourself. Supposedly, as a rational adult, you have control over the choices you make. You do not have to go out and buy a bottle and drink until the liquor is gone. This is something you choose to do. So stop making excuses for yourself by saying that it is a disease that you can't control.
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>>I am actually speaking from experience here. Over 20 years ago, I was laid up with a broken leg. I have zero pain tolerance and the pain killers my doctor gave me were not enough. So, while I was laid up in the cast, I started drinking to dull the pain - and I drank a LOT. After 6 weeks of that much drinking, I got to the point that if I didn't have a drink every 4 hours, I would start shaking to pieces from the withdrawal. So what did I so? I joined AA and detoxed as soon as the cast was off.I guess that my point is that, given the right (or wrong) set of circumstances, it is possible for anyone to get addicted to something.
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>>Do I still drink? Yes I do. When Andy gets home from work, we have a martini together on the deck while he grills our dinner. But I have no compulsion to keep drinking until the bottle is empty. And you can bet your bottom dollar that if I did, I would not be stupid enough to take that first drink. The man that I was living with 20 years ago was an alcoholic. He died at the age of 42 - drank himself to death. If that is what you are trying to do, no one can stop you except yourself.
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>>Apparently you would rather drink yourself to death than keep your job after being out of work for 8 months. Really, Mike, how stupid can you get?
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>He knows all of that, but it is GREAT that you posted it again. He needs to read it again and again until it sinks in and takes root. Also, his negative replies or derogatory comments here on the UT can usually be traced to days he is drinking.

True. When I drink I am a completely different person. I am a pretty nice guy sober, at least I think so. Not so when drunk. It brings out horrible things I wish weren't in me at all.