I think that when you have the problem you have being away from home and support was always going to be difficult.

You've fallen off the wagon so just get back on again. You're an intelligent man, you can fix this.

>I want to.
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>The most important thing is to get sober and stay sober. This situation was harder than I could deal with -- far from home, alone, lonely.
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>I don't know what I'm going to do about money but money is the most important thing. Sobriety is more important. My daughters are more important. This has not been a good experience for them, either, for reasons unrelated to my drinking. Just bad karma all around.
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>>Really sorry to hear that Mike. respect for making a decision not to mess the client around.
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>>Make this a new start for you.
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>>>I know most of you are tired of posts like this. I am kind of tired of them myself.
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>>>This morning I resigned from my project and and am going back to Chicago, probably tomorrow. I was not able to control the drinking. Last week was an excellent week through Thursday, then I slipped again. Called in Friday with a bogus story. Drunk all weekend. Another bogus story yesterday. Drunk again today, before dawn. I called Nicolle, the recruiter who brought me here, and told her the whole story. No lies this time.
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>>>For anyone looking for work, I heartily recommend this client. They have some great stuff going on and the people are nice to work with. I may have come here with an ignorant northerner's view of the south as backwards. I quickly learned otherwise. These are some of the sharpest people I have ever worked with, particularly in their use of SQL Server and stored procedures. If you apply, be sure to brush up on that.
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>>>I do not ask for any sympathy at all. Nor do I enjoy the drama. It's hard to not drink but every time I do it is ultimately my choice. This place is part of my life and I wanted to let you know, that's all. Some of you have given up on me. I don't blame you. To those of you who haven't, I am eternally grateful. It's more than I deserve.
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>>>Don't worry, I am not going to do anything dramatic. Oddly enough, I do not feel depressed. That comes and goes with seemingly no control. What I am is determined to stop wasting my life.
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>>>Thank you for listening. I hope this is my last stupid post.