>>WTF?!?! Is the UT a dating service now?
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>>Sure, didn't you know that I'm a pimp on the side? :)
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>>Good lord, I popped in the UT here, only to see Mike is at it again...now I have to read the rest of this to see what he's done now.
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>I tried to off myself again last night. It didn't work, which is surprising given that I took more pills this time than before. I really wanted to be gone.
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>Kevin, you are a good guy but you don't understand depression. It's debilitating.

That's actually the point. You have tried to turn this site into your own personal psychiatric counseling site and there is no one here qualified to do that. Sadly, you have met some enablers here which has clearly assisted you in continuing down the wrong road or else you would not have deteriorated to this point. It has been a steady decline over the past few months.

The only recommendation I can make, and I make that recommendation based on experience with alcoholics, but absolutely NO professional qualifications whatsoever, is

CHECK YOURSELF INTO A PROFESSIONAL REHAB or PSYCHIATRIC FACILITY NOW. IF YOU CANNOT DO THAT, GO TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM AND TELL THEM YOU NEED OBSERVATION FOR AT LEAST 36 HOURS.

That will at least get you detoxed so you can seek professional help without the alcohol affecting your decisions.

If you won't do it for yourself, then do it for your daughters.

Your daughters don't need you drunk and they don't need you dead. They need you ALIVE and SOBER. GET HELP!!!!