I will certainly agree that our self-worth is often tied to having something meaningful to do (i.e. work). In the meantime, you might consider volunteering at a shelter or such. Helps to be less self-centered. Works for me.

>I thought this over and discussed it with my daughters and have changed my mind. Disappearing for a while now is not such a good idea. I need to stay close to my AA group (even though there are many groups elsewhere) and look for work. I need calmness, not excitement.
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>>Personally, I think any “big city” venue would be a downer.
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>>I would go for a (safe) native American “sweat lodge”, or a dessert safari type of thing. Perhaps climb a mountain. Stay away from cold weather and keep in the sun.
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>>>I have been trying everything, to no avail. Maybe a change of scenery will do me good. One of the counselors in the hospital last week, one I trusted, suggested a change of scenery might do me good. We talked for a long time, way over her allotment, and she said you might be better off elsewhere.
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>>>I would like to come stay somewhere for a couple of weeks. It almost doesn't matter where. I will pay and work my keep. Before I leave I will make sure my daughters are covered.
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>>>Mike