>>>>>>I should just go to bed. The more I talk the weirder I sound.
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>>>>>>Mike, I swear to god, you do this again....
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>>>>>Some good news. I did go to bed and got a good night's sleep, and am sober now. It does appall me that barely a week after getting so drunk I tried to kill myself I went on another binge. That's a little scary.
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>>>>Mike
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>>>>go back a little here.
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>>>>Where did the alcohol come from. I assume you have got rid of all the alcohol in your house ?
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>>>>So what state of mind where you in when you went out and bought some ?
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>>>In state of addiction. I know it's no excuse.
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>>>I am just up briefly to talk to my friends, than back to bvd.
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>>I think subconciously you like it Mike. Plenty of drama, attention seeking.
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>I hate to agree with Nick on anything but I do on this.
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>This forum is not an AA group.
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>Mike - when you're sober you're an OK guy.
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>When you're not, you have no business on here.
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>I don't know if anyone else agrees, but IMHO stay off the UT until you are sober. I don't want to hear about your problems when you are drinking. I don't want to hear wondrefully brave words about how you are getting past it (you're not). I don't want to hear about your latest attempt to off yourself.
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>Check yourself into a full-time rehab program, or make sure your will is up to date because you will wind up dead real soon.
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>Whatever you do about it, I don't want to hear about it. If I see this again I'll personally ask that you be removed from the UT.

Bill, I want to thank you again for your message. Tough love is what I need. I am easily enabled, and it's not an easy problem to beat. Some think it's just a matter of willpower. It's not.

I have not given up.