>>Some good news. I did go to bed and got a good night's sleep, and am sober now. It does appall me that barely a week after getting so drunk I tried to kill myself I went on another binge. That's a little scary
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>>Well, praise the baby Jesus for small favors - but here's what scary - that you are NOT in an in-patient treament facility. Mike, you have a severe problem...it is less than 2 weeks from your last binge where you had a .33 (or whatever it was) BAL...you should be in a facility. As is stands, you are "self-medicating"...and your judgement isn't exactly state of the art right now.
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>>GET INTO A FACILITY before you do more serious harm and you wind up affecting the lives of your daughters (and you've likely already been affecting them)
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>I looked into rehab this week. I can't afford it. And it's no sure thing IAC. I know a number of people in AA who went to rehab, often multiple times, and it didn't work for them.

I am tired of your nonsense. If you looked into it at all, you didn't try very hard. There are plenty of affordable and yes, even free, residential rehab programs:

http://www.dhs.state.il.us/page.aspx?item=29759
http://www.dhs.state.il.us/page.aspx?item=29725

You could start by calling the help line:
1-800-843-6154