I can tell that you have no clue concerning the effects of your actions on your daughters. I tried to give you an idea as to how your actions were affecting them a couple months ago and you chose to ignore.

The first 17 years of my life, I lived with an alcoholic father so I know everything there is to know about how we react to your selfishness. You don't see it because we hide it from you. We're afraid if we complain it will send you into another drinking binge.

We avoid you by losing ourselves in our school work, sports, etc. The less we're around you, the better.

If you don't think we (your daughters) die a little every time you try to kill yourself with the booze........... I really can't finish that sentence because much hate I felt for my dad is surfacing and I'd like to tell you what I really think. He "thought" everything was okay with us kids just as you say you think everything is fine with your daughters.

As I said before, you have no clue! You need to get down on your knees and beg their forgiveness for what you've done to them....but no, you'll make the same old excuse that they're fine with you trying to commit suicide.




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>That last part is offensive. My daughters are amazingly normal, much better than I deserve. Emily will be the captain of her volleyball team next year and the valedictorian of her class. She got my brains without all the crap.
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>I do not go to AA to feel comfortable. I go because I see people who have recovered from the disease. I know it's possible.

Yeah, it's possible.....but you first have to BELIEVE there is a higher power that will help you, and you can't do that.