>>>>I know I will be OK. It's just hard right now. I'm not even going to watch hoops.
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>>>>I will not try to off myself again. That is not going to happen.
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>>>>Here is something I regret. I am not behind regret. I have been ignoring Tamar's emails for two weeks. Tamar has been emailing we every week for two years, every Tuesday. It has meant everything to me. She has a soul as big as the world. I can not even begin to express my gratitude.
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>>>Mike? Did you have a drink?
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>>No, I was just really down. I have two problems and the alcoholism is the lesser of them.
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>Phew - I thought you had slipped. I've been that low over the past two years, so I understand what you are dealing with. If you get that low again, phone me or send an email.

I will.

You have an excellent reason to have been down. When you told me Helen had died I felt like it was someone from my own life. I hope the good memories sustain you during the hard moments.