>>>>>>I can't even begin to describe how bizarrely miswritten that is (by Andrew Brust, whoever he is). But have fun.
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>>>>>>Mr. Beane,
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>>>>>>First, Andrew wrote some of that and I wrote some. It is out of sheer morbid curiosity that I ask what significant issue you have with it.
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>>>>>>Second, Andrew Brust is a well-known speaker and author, a former MS Region Manager, and a CTO for a highly respected company in Manhattan. I accept that even a household name (which Andrew is, in the SQL/BI area) isn't known in EVERY household, but Andrew is known in most.
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>>>>>You would think with all that going for him he could put together a more coherent message.
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>>>>>I guess I am just being pissy. Good luck with the presentation. As much as we bicker back and forth, I do respect your technical knowledge.
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>>>>Well, Mike. You got me on this one. It seems perfectly coherent to me, but then I suppose I could have dyslexia and just not be aware of it.
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>>>I thought the announcement of the meeting was really, really badly written. It's as simple as that. I could have kept my mouth shut, which probably would have been the wiser move, Things have been bearing down on me lately like bricks and maybe I took it out on that message. People who think they are so darned smart don't always write well. And I thought that was one of the points of going to college.
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>>How do you know the author of that message either thinks he is "so darned smart" or that he went to college when you didn't even know who it was?
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>>I have read too many messages of yours which contain an insult and then an attempt to temper it with a compliment (see above). Then the attempt at pity. (see above again). You need help NOW. Even if you are not drinking, you are on the brink and looking for a reason to drink. You are looking for a fight. Go for a run. Go for a bike ride. Get a real punching bag. Lift weights. Whatever it is, get help. Call your sponsor!!!!!!! Call a friend!!!!!
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>Thanks, Tracy. Yes, I am on the brink and looking for a fight. Not sure about looking for a reason to drink, I work really hard on not thinking about that.
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>You say talk to my sponsor. I don't have one. I had one and he was worse off than me. Also -- not trying to give myself an excuse to drink -- I have lost a lot of faith in AA. It's been two years and it's not taking on. IMO it's a great program if you have the underlying faith to begin with. If you do not have spiritual belief and faith (like you had at 5) it's a tough program to embrace. Dr. Bob and Bill W. had faith right down to their shoes. The group -- first there were just two of them, then three -- was founded in that spirit.
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>Please bear in mind that I have two problems. One in alcoholism. The other is depression. It's a really bad combination.

Take a step back and take stock Mike> You can't afford to be without a support group.
You even seemed to have p__sed off Mr Hankey (no mean achievement).