>>>In answer to all those of you who are wondering if I am drunk, yes, I am. But I fee better And now I will sleep a good sound sleep.
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>>Thanks for sharing.
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>>One is tempted to just ignore this and perhaps just look away out of politeness. But ...
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>>Some of the things I find particularly boring about drunks are delusions that their insights are of interest to others, their "illness" is somehow a heroic struggle - even if they choose to lose - and their seeming need to humiliate themselves in public in uncreative and repititious ways.
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>>It is a particularly unattractive form of narcissism.
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>Addressing all of you who have responded to this, not just you. You are right, of course. After being banned over the summer I said several things were going to change when I returned. I was going to ignore a couple of people who have been giving me a hard time for years. I haven't. I was going to avoid getting into political and social debates. I haven't. I was not going to post while under the influence. I have. It's time for me to start sticking to all those vows.
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>Not saying this to solicit any sympathy but alcoholism is just as ugly from the inside as it is to observers. I am basically all right, or at least well behaved, when sober. With alcohol that can go straight out the window. Inhibitions and civility disappear. When I read some of my drunken posts sober I am as repulsed as anyone else.
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>It's not all gloom and doom. In fact I have been drinking very seldom. That's not as good as never but there have been many times it's been a lot worse than this. I have much to be thankful for and need to focus on those things. As far as the UT, if I can't be a cheerful presence what's the point?
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>PS -- I gave up on "Our Kind of Traitor" last night. I was within 100 pages of the end and realized I really didn't care how it ended. With so many books waiting to be read there is no reason to finish something I am not enjoying.

Just curious, are the girls with their mom for the holiday?