>>>>You don't have to say anything. I am no longer arguing. i started out today the best and had a terrific 4 a.m. to noon. I brought home some work and accomplished some. And then all I had to do was drive by a liquor store on the way on the way before way home from from my morning errants. All I had to do was return an atim at UPS, get an oil change, and pick up some groceries There is a liquor store on the way home and I fell in. The store is not the problem at all, of course.
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>>>Reading the stuff I bolded above, all I can say is a parody of two quotes, one from a movie and the other from a commercial:
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>>>"Drink much?" "Got Booze?"
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>>Well, crap. I have no recollection of posting that and can't believe I posted it. I seriously need to get myself under control.
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>I didn't respond this time at all, because I figured that was the case. I think if you search Mike, you will find a LOT of messages you don't recall posting. Every time you drive by the liquor store, think of those posts before you stop (plus the stuff you should be thinking about already like your daughters, etc)... Put a sticker on your visor or the car window something. Add "call sponsor" to them too. Post them all over your house.

Thank you for your concern. I know I need to do something. Easily said, of course. I have known that for quite a while. There is nothing rational about it and it's not like vowing to paint the downstairs bathroom.

One of the things that surprised me when I started going to AA is that the members are more or less a cross section of society, other than the disease we share. Sure, there are some who fit the stereotype of a down and out drunk or who have clear mental issues. There are also some extremely successful, personable people. If you met them in any other context you wouldn't guess they are alcoholics. This includes many, of course, who are now sober day in and day out, which improves their behavior and makes them less erratic. There are men and women in my group who have been sober for years and even decades. It is an article of faith in AA that one is never cured or recovered, only sober. You will always be an alcoholic and will always be vulnerable to slipping back into it. That's why people still come to meetings, talk to other alcoholics, etc. so long after taking their last drink.

Another misconception about alcoholics it that it is primarily a male condition. Not the case. The groups I have attended have skewed male, but not by much. There may be a factor of women paying more attention to their health and being more willing to seek help than men, but even if that is a factor and taken into account the membership is about two thirds male, one third female.