>>No, not going that way. After the last time I promised my daughters it wouldn't happen again, and it won't. Just gone from this forum. Please someone forward this to Michel so I can't just stroll back in in a different mood. It's for the best. Blathering away on the UT is not good for me and I am not good for the forum. It seems like another lifetime ago when I was an MVP. There is something seriously wrong with me and I need to deal with that first.
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>>I will miss nearly all of you. That includes you, Bill Kuhn. I meant what I said about being loyal to people who have become friends through shared experiences. Alan Papow, baseball man. We can still go to a game, you know. (Now here is a moment of lightness. One of the colleges Emily has been admitted to is Marquette and she says she doesn't want to go there. She says Milwaukee is "ghetto" and the only thing she likes in it is Miller Park). Charles Hankey, the smartest person I know. I should really stop because people will start to feel left out. Tore, Dragan, Metin, Viv, Nick, Bonnie, on and on and on. Thank you all.
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>>A particular tip of the hat to Tamar, who has gone way beyond the call and way beyond ordinary tolerance. I cannot thank you enough.
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>>On to a new focus and not letting myself start dying at age 54.
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>I say it's time for all UT member to boycott you until you're cured.

No one is ever cured of this, Kevin. That is standard wisdom in AA, and the reason people who have not tasted alcohol in decades still go to meetings. There are several in my group who have been sober for over 20 years. One of them likes to say, "I'm one drink away from being back exactly where I was." What we can change is our behavior. We can abstain. We can live normal, fruitful lives. And that is my mission.

I came upon your message by accident. I logged into the UT to see if there were any responses to my post about Breaking Bad, saw some CCs to my "Going" thread, and read through many of them. What a narcissist, LOL. Yours stopped me. As did Victor's. That really stopped me. I considered him a friend. That's probably too strong a word, as we have never met. But we have talked on the phone many times, not all when I was drunk, and we seemed simpatico. I guess not. But it is another sign that I have slipped even further than I realized.

Another popular statement in AA meetings: "All you need to change is everything." And I am working on that. In that spirit, you should not expect to see me here, either posting or lurking, until May at the earliest. If I do, bust me.

Best to all,

Mike