>>Most people find their hearts after they have a child. That does not seem to be the case with you. More like the opposite. You used to be a nice guy. What is it you're so pissed off about?
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>Trolls use language like that.
Never mind, this is it, I am gone from the UT. It has been surprisingly bearable to only log in here twice a day most days the past three months, once before leaving for work and again after returning to the house where I am staying. There are some great people here who I will miss. They can all find me at
mbeane@inbox.com. Some others I will not miss at all. I am not sure whether AA is the solution for me but one thing I have learned for sure is you have to get the people who feed your disease, who intentionally light triggers like anger, out of your life. As Graham Greene put it in "Our Man in Havana," it's time to leave the ruins of Havana.
I have known for quite a while that if I became fed up enough with the UT to leave I would try to do so on a positive note. No, this isn't positive, but enjoy anyway. Here are two videos from my favorite musician on the seismic event of our lifetime. My last tribute to Bruce, related to these videos, is something that was reported in the NYT series of tributes to those who died at the Twin Towers on 9/11. One day it was a tribute to a firefighter who died that day -- I am STILL pissed off that the firefighters had outdated equipment that didn't get them the May Day message that got most policemen out safely -- which mentioned he was a huge Bruce Springsteen fan. It turns out he read "The Lives They Lived" religiously and called her up. She said he talked with her for 45 minutes or so and that phone call helped her get through the worst of it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PKuRGt7LnzU&NR=1http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eNnB4dkVRJISo long. It's been real. I am moving on to the next chapter in my life.
UPDATE: All right, two more and then it's off to bed. The first is of Bruce at his peak of emerging fame, looking achingly young. Two of the E Street Band, organist Danny Federici and saxophonist Clarence Clemons, the Big Man, are no longer with us. The second is a straight out rocker which never ceases to make me smile and feel like dancing. I saw them play it 10 times or more times live and it always brought down the house.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ezfVwEhYrfUhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=krWJu5bKTXsHow can we miss you when you won't leave? ;-) I really am going. Be well.
