Jesus said, John 13:34-35:
"34 A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another.
35 By this shall all men know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another."

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The enemy is teaching you falsely about Jesus, Walter.
It's why you believe things about Him that are wrong.

If you pursue the truth about Him, truly and for real, actually desiring from within to know the truth, you WILL find it. You will find Jesus.
It's God's promise -- that all those who seek find (true seekers only).

If you haven't found Him it's because you are not seeking, but instead are listening to false voices teaching you false things.
This is confirmed by your postings. They contain many false ideas about Jesus which are simply incorrect.

Open the eyes of your heart, Walter.
Let the love in.
The love of Jesus.
The REAL love made possible only in and by Him.

Blessings, my friend. :-)
I love you very much. :-)
But Jesus loves you far more.