>I relapsed. I had been doing great. Today would have been 3 months sober for me, which is considered a sobriety milestone. I didn't quite make it. There must be something self destructive in me.
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>Some of you may have noticed that I was happier and more content. I liked feeling that way.
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>I told my daughters. I told my sponsor. (You're supposed to call before, not after, he said). I told a woman in the group who has been sober for 5 years and who I like a lot and who I thought might be my second wife. She is super smart, funny, and artistic; exactly the kind of woman I am drawn to. She was not pleased.
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>Now I get back on the horse. It will be August instead of May.

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One positve: You don't hide it.

Grandma says:
Fallen is no sin. To remain laying is one. Stand up, walk on. You will tumble again, but the important part is that between.

It helps to focus on the next (single) moves. You know the novel Momo? Look for the words of the street cleaner Beppo about a distant goal.


Lutz