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>True. My mom was a nurse and that was considered an excellent career for a woman back then.
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>There od is something seriously wrong with my health. Not to be melodratic but I think I'm dying.


If you're waxing philosophically because you've had some bad news, OK, I get it. But based on what you've shared up here, you CAN keep things in check.

But beyond that, if you truly mean what you say, then I say this as a friend, get your butt back to a doctor.