>>(Don't be too encouraged. Amy Winehouse said that too).
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>>My problem has become way too big to ignore. Tonight I called my daughter Allie asking her to check me into a program and take care of things here for 28 days. I will be in a facility in West Allis, Wisconsin. The way I have been living is no way to live. I am still somewhat in touch with the good person who I know still exists inside me. I want to find my way around what would surely be an early death.
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>>No humor this time. This is deadly serious. If you have it in you to pray, please say a prayer for me.
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>Don't know whether you'll see this before you go, but good for you. Admitting you need help is step one. Good luck.
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I'm still here. Allie is coming down today and will be taking me to wherever on Sunday or Monday. The surprising thing is I am having a hell of a time finding a 28 day rehab place that will take me in. Tricia recommended a place in Wisconsin but they don't take Illinois insurance. (Has anyone mentioned lately that our health care system is hopelessly screwed up?) The cost if you are not an insured Wisconsin resident is $995 per day. I am still working on it and am sure some place will turn up. This has to happen.

That is step one in AA as well, if that wasn't what you meant. A high percentage of addicts never seek help of any kind. I am an addict with my self confidence dialed down to zero but I know I need help.

Thank you for being my friend all this time.