>>>>Trust me, it's true. She came back for several more hours later, most of them off the clock, and just left. I know this is a strange scenario for attraction but we really do hit it off. We will be seeing each other some more as private citizens. If anyone wants to judge her, so be it. She has a regular job as well. This is a sideline, a very remunerative one.
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>>>You are really pathetic sometimes, I would never announce any dalliances on a technical forum. But hey when drunk, its okay. Then you tell us all what a real man you are that the prostitute came back, on her own time and gave it to you again for free because you are such a talented lover. Unreal... you need to go back through all of your posts on the thread and find all the ones where you talk about meeting a woman here or there, who in 30 seconds, falls in love with you and you two are really happy. Then a week later, its someone else.
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>>>I am truly greatful that my self-esteem is not tied to my ah... er.... uhm, anyway, it seems that you only can feel good about yourself when you are playing the role of the super lover and Casanova who can win any woman's heart without effort. Then there Sophia.... lol....and the whole thing comes crashing down.
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>>>Get a grip.
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>>You're right, John. Alcohol makes me a real dickhead. I am a pretty good guy sober and I think anyone here who has met me will tell you that. When drinking it's a whole different story. It brings out all kinds of nastiness and inappropriate talk in me.
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>>I am going to take Kevin and Victor's advice and stay away from the UT for a while. If and when I come back I will only come here sober. If I can't stay sober I can at least stay offline. My reason for posting this is to sincerely apologize to everyone for my appalling messages.
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>>No word yet on the rehab start date. I was admitted last Thursday and was told it typically takes 2 to 3 weeks for a space to open up. IAC it should be sometime fairly soon.
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>>I don't know if I have told you this before but probably the most respected member of my AA group is an ex-Marine. (Are you really ever ex?) He has been sober for over 30 years. Even the other long time sober people pay attention to every word he says. There is almost always some value in it. He says you know me now but you would not have wanted to know me when I was still drinking. I guess my point is that I may not buy every aspect of the AA program but it's worth going to just to see that it can be done. Despite all indications to the contrary, I haven't given up.
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>>Take care, one and all.
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>You shouldn't read this but you probably will.
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>You are pissing your fathers inheritance up the wall. The only reason you can afford to carry on like this is because you don;t need to work . I'd suggest you sign the money over to your children before its all gone and maybe give yourself some motivation to get off your a__ Mike.

I am getting off my a__. I don't know what else you would call going into rehab and committing to outpatient treatment after that.

Let me clear up a misconception you have. I am not living off an inheritance. I made very good money for a long time and have savings of my own, Some of it is in cash or money market funds and some of it is in IRAs. Sure, the inheritance was a tremendous windfall, but it's not like I never have to work again or was selling apples on the sidewalk. I still have two daughters in college, most of which I pay
for.

On a personal note, your message is a bit of an eye opener for me. You have always been one of my favorites here. For you to address me with such scorn shows me how far I have fallen. There are a couple of people who have always gone out of their way to antagonize me but I thought by and large I am still liked. I guess not. That's not self-pitying; it's just waking up and smelling the coffee. So I thank you for that. It increases my resolve to earn back respect I have lost.

I won't be "the thing that wouldn't leave." When I get my admission date I will post that and then again when I get back home. Then I will play it by ear. There would be no point sticking around if my presence is not wanted.