>>I try not to think about it.
>I asked you that question because if you are afraid, then it's a fact that there is a force within you that you want to live, and there must be a reason why?

Could it be that the force is the gene library in every cell of your body, trying to leave as many descendents as possible, thus, instructing it's survival machine to avoid death?

On the other hand, why does it have to be a force inside of me? Why can't it BE me that gets to decide? Wihtout any extra help, I can decide for myself that its much more fun to be alive than to not be.