>>As for depression, nope that wasn't it. I've just decided to ask God someday why I had to go through all this
>crap.
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>I'd encourage you to take a look at these online sermons. They are very helpful in pointing out God's purposes in the trials we face.
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>http://www.biblebb.com/files/MAC/59-5.HTM
>http://www.biblebb.com/files/MAC/47-83.htm
>http://www.biblebb.com/files/MAC/47-83.htm
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>There's more if you're interested. I know it's a lot to read, but I believe it will help you understand exactly what the Lord is doing by putting you in these situations that most of us would not want to deal with.


I'm well aware of this information. My pastor for over 30 years was Dr Adrian Rogers and he covered this many times. No one ever answered the real question I have posed though, and I doubt they can. So, I'll have to ask God myself someday.