>>>>>I am getting properly drunk in his memory. Some things are worth getting drunk over.
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>>>>No, not really ... especially someone in your condition. You know better. Were you just looking for an excuse?
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>>>Probably. It was a dumb thing to do. I know it's dangerous for me to do because I could easily fall back into the habit. Sober today, and planning to stay that way.
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>>One day at a time, Mike ... one day at a time.
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>Right. I know I have to stop. Yesterday was a start and today feels a little better.

Drop the ego, get off your bum, and go to a meeting(s). Daily or even more than once a day.