>>>>I went to an AA meeting today and felt the same thing, with the same intensity, about myself. I can beat this. Anything is possible.
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>>>YES YOU CAN :o)
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>>You're being funny but in fact I am getting involved in some volunteer work. I was doing a lot of that when I lived in Evanston and have let it lapse since moving up here to Near Canada. But there are people who can use a helping hand here, too. I let a good instinct in me lapse and it feels good to get it back.
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>You know I generally keep my observations on your personal struggles private, but I repeat an observation I made privately to you: your recovery will benefit greatly from the generosity of spirit I first saw in you back in CIS days. I predict you will become a great sponsor in AA and will see that role as a keystone of your own sobriety.
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>And I do believe you will succeed and your daughters will be very proud of you.

I'm working on it. Going to AA meetings is a step I never thought I would take.

And I still feel generous in spirit. It keeps me going sometimes. If I ever lose that, just cut a hole in the ground.

(Or drill a hole in the ground, as Graham Greene put it in the unforgettable first paragraph of "The Third Man").