I probably should have taken it anyway until something better came along.

Yes, you should have. I've had jobs where I drove 60 and 90 minutes each way and still benefited from it.

I don't need to leave the UT. Isolation is not good for me. I just need to behave myself, and stay away when temptation is too strong for me.

Yeah, how's that working out?

I will apologize to Mike C. That's exactly the kind of stupid, aggressive stuff alcohol brings out in me. Yes, I know, it's totally senseless. I am not using this as an excuse but people who don't have the disease don't understand what it's like.

For that matter I don't mean half the things I say to you. You have said some pretty strong things to me, though, and I tend to strike back when attacked.

Which half? For the record, I meant everything I've said.

I'm curious. You said before that you're concerned about money. Alcohol costs money. See where I'm going with this?

Obviously on some level, probably subconscious, it's more important to me to drink than to stay sober all the time.

I'm sure that notion will be of great comfort to those who rely on you, if drinking winds up killing you. If you truly think that way, you're a ...you know what....I'll let you finish that sentence.