>>I have avoided such posts, mostly due to being sober most of the time. There have been far more sober days thank drinking ones. The past two weeks I fell back into the abyss. One of the mystifying things is I never know what triggers it.
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>I guess I'll never understand the mindset of a drinker or an addict in general. I love a good drink or two, but somewhere around the third one something kicks in and I stretch it for over an hour. I have reached my plateau of feeling good, and I (instinctively or through experience, no difference now) feel that more won't make it better, may make it worse. So I don't. Kind of being in a lucid dream, I still keep my will over events, and choose what I will allow to happen and what not. Even when drinking in a perfectly safe environment, i.e. at home, where I don't have to worry about getting home, I still don't let go.
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>And then there are days when the drink just doesn't work. Had a few of those during the last years, various weddings etc, when we start around lunch and take it until late in the evening - just doesn't hit me at all, at least none of the known symptoms appear (speaking in a different manner, feeling high, bits of dizziness at times, attempting to sing).
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>But when it works, I don't take the fourth until at least an hour after the third, and even that's less frequent than once a year. I guess I'm a cheap date... or is it that my guts give up faster than my head.
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>Of course, this is of no use to you. If you had that kind of mental defense to stop on time, we wouldn't have this thread. So I guess it'll be another cold turkey for you.

I discovered, many years ago, that I'm a happy-mean drunk and it's probably best if I don't overindulge in public. And, since I'm the one generally driving, I don't drink much outside the house. Maybe a cocktail before dinner - or a beer if I'm somewhere I'm gonna be for a while and I'm famous for nursing a beer for a couple of hours or so. Good thing I drink beers that don't turn nasty as they come to room temp.