>>Mike, I see our friend has given you phone numbers and instructions. That's quite a bit for that person to give you.
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>>It's now time for you to pony up with some results.
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>>I'm forwarding a copy of this to everyone who has been on this discussion thread. I'm going to ask that no one on this thread reply to any of Mike's messages. You can't use the UT as a substitute for your therapy, and from this point on, anyone replying to you for any reason is only giving you one more reason, one more minute to delay what you need to do.
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>>Mike, buddy, this is for your own good. If I didn't care, I'd say nothing. You've been given instructions and as much encouragement as can be given.
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>>If you can type messages on the UT , then you can pick up the phone and make a few calls.
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>>That's it from me, and I hope from everyone else. Mike, forget about the UT and start dialing.
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>I'm out too..

Please don't give up on me, guys. I have been making calls (and am sober today). I am looking at 28 day in-patient. There are a few around here but I don't have a reservation yet, either because it's the weekend or they don't take my medical insurance (and it is prohibitively expensive otherwise). If in-patient doesn't work out I will at least start going to AA every day again. I was sober for 3 months earlier this year so know I can do it.

The odd thing is I am happier sober. That is how I know it's a disease and not just a bad habit. I know we have had this discussion before but it has been recognized as a disease by the medical community for decades. My doctor said you will need willpower but willpower alone probably will not be enough.