>It's about time. I have not done this before. If you're thinking I have been in denial about the seriousness of my problems that would be correct. I can't say I am looking forward to it, since one thing I hate is talking about my feelings, but where has that gotten me? I am 57 years old, meaning I don't have an unlimited time left if I keep it up. It really could kill me.
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>You are an idiot. I, for one, am sick of hearing this same old song and dance. You sound like a broken record. I don't want to see any more messages on this subject until you actually do something about it. You are like the boy who cried "Wolf!" and we all know what happened to him.

I just called three local treatment facilities from the list I was given at the hospital. None of them were in but I left messages for all three. I also talked with my sponsor. He said this is the hardest part. He said once you get the ball rolling you have a chance. One of the reasons I chose him as a sponsor is he struggled for a long time to overcome addiction. He has now been clean for over 10 years. If you want to be Doubting Thomasina, that's fine. It's understandable. He said actions are what matter, not good intentions.

This is going to happen, finally. I will follow up here with the name and phone number of whichever facility it turns out to be.